Snow & Stuff

I skipped a day of blogging yesterday. Amazing. I guess with the holiday crashing down upon me, i’m too busy frantically searching for presents, wrapping them and hoping they pass the test of “oh i love it! no really!”

And it’s snowing. That always distracts me from any stress and thrusts me into happy happy mode. For the most part…

But…

…it’s been an interesting week to say the least. Work has been hideous, I mean up to the eyes in crappy work to do. Ah well, i guess i’m not different than many other poor people slavin’ away for another dollar another day.

Plus it’s how i am buying all these presents.

I guess I have not blogged because I feel sort of quiet. I think I’ve spewed enough emotional luggage at everyone out there in the blog-o-sphere (that’s not to say there won’t be more). My heart is fine, it’s all healed up, only a minor scar to report this time around. As my mother has always said “kid you need to make sure you got a spring on that ass”. Meaning, if you get knocked down, you don’t have time to stay down, you got to “spring” back up. So I guess that rule is supposed to apply to my emotional strength…and boy is it  a bitch sometimes…but I think my spring has sprung. Anyway, enough about that, don’t feel like sharing much more. No one hates a pity party more than me. I mean I REALLY hate them. As in…”See the chip on that shoulder, get rid of it before I slam it to the floor for ya.” Yep, i’m not a pity party girl.

I head home next week for the holidays. For the most part, I’m expecting some very fun times and I’m bringing a camera. I’d like to preserve some of the highlights that will be this trip (ie me getting my 2nd tat on my bday!)

I’ve also realized this week how lucky I am to have the few good friends that I have. It seems when ever I get knocked down, it’s always the same people coming around to help prop me back up. And that’s something I wrestle with cause like I just said, I was raised to do it myself. No help needed. But now I see that isn’t necessarily true. So consider this a big, ginormous thank you to those good buds of mine that are making sure I don’t question my judgement. That I don’t question my naturally positive nature. My judgement and nature is just fine. It’s this naive trust in people that is a problem. A huge problem. Over and over.

Alas, i’ve still got alot of work to do in terms of that. But for now, it’s Christmas & my bday & new years & its snowing…and I’m happy, plenty happy about all of that.

We’ll save the psycho babble for ‘09.